Izumi Konata: CONFIRMED FOR BRAWL
February 29, 2008 at 1:04 am | In Announcement, Game, Lucky☆Star |
And thus, my sad attempt to cosplay at a game tourney event.
I’m going to a Nintendo-sponsored Super Smash Bros. Brawl tournament on Saturday, March 1st. Since it’s Spring Break and I have nothing better to do, I will be cosplaying Konata and practicing the Lucky☆Star dance with some friends at the event. I’ve played 30 minutes of Melee in my life, so I think I’ll lose within Round 1 of the tourney.
No, Izumi Konata is not actually in the game.
As you may or may not have noticed, actual lyrics posts have slowed to a trickle on this site. Besides being busy for school and Anime Boston, I have developed what is highly likely to be clinical depression. No, it’s not like feeling down after failing a test or something; it’s persistent thoughts of emptiness, hopeless, and suicide. I tackle situations on a day-to-day basis, but that’s about it. I see no future or life. I’m going to see a shrink tomorrow and get a real medical evaluation, and perhaps medicine and future therapy sessions to help me cope.
Update: I’ve gotten back from the shrink and given an evaluation of Moderate to Severe clinical depression, on the scale of Light = having plenty of crummy days, Moderate = considering if the world is better without me, Severe = ready to die today. I’ve also gotten medicine prescribed. Seriously, I know what the cause of my conditions is and what can lift me out of it, but until then, there will always be a chance of death.
12 Comments »
RSS feed for comments on this post. TrackBack URI
Leave a comment
Blog at WordPress.com. | Theme: Pool by Borja Fernandez.
Entries and comments feeds.
Good luck.
Comment by Daniel — February 29, 2008 #
Yeah…come on MSN some time if you wanna chat.
Comment by Sahba — February 29, 2008 #
Cheer up!
I used to have lots of problems in my real life and I went to some sections of therapy. Actuality, the doctor said only what I did know. I was expecting something better. Well, I quited the therapy and started to rethink my life as well.
What are mines objectives?
What I want to do?
Just keep in mind to make a “tomorrow” better for you. Just try to solve your problems.
You said you were hopeless. About what? I’m sure there’s something happening in your real life. Try to make more friends, go watch movies, etc.
Believe me, you just need to think what you want.
Cheer up again, Atashi. You’re too pretty to commit suicide xD
Comment by Raijenki — February 29, 2008 #
Oh craps I thought this title implied that Konata would be a playable character in Brawl. YOU LED ME ON~ ;;
And I concur with Raijenki - therapy doesn’t work. I think my doctor person was actually making me feel worse if anything.
Comment by Nicole — February 29, 2008 #
I already know what I want to do, but it’s very, very bleak. Sorry, but heck no, talking to someone online does squat about my situation. It can’t raise my academic standing, cure my laziness, give me a better family, or restore my relationship.
Anyways, the psychiatrist ruled that I do have moderate to severe clinical depression and prescribed some medicine for me.
Comment by Atashi — February 29, 2008 #
hm reading the things you named (academic standing etc.) seems that the main problem is not centered withing you (expect from the laziness) there must be a limit of how someone happiness relay on other humans. I mean great problem of the people is that “I want someone to bring me happiness (love,,, etc)” well bring happiness yourself, for yourself. it’s seems that you are down because of other people. it’s true that the human is social creature but it can’t be only social. One must learn to leave happily with himself before he can try search more happiness within other people. In situation like yours (the way you describe it so far) the only one capable of helping you is you and you alone just think about it. try to understand what you want. color that bleak image you talking about. I don’t know if go on some kind of journey by yourself how would it effect you. it helped me.
Well I think I wrote too much actually. if you get interested in what I wrote and want to understand something more etc. you can gtalk me I will be happy to help with something
Comment by PCgamer — February 29, 2008 #
Oh, so what about you said we can conclude:
- You’re too lazy to do the things
- You’re having problems with your family
- Your grades at school are getting worse
- You finished your relationship
I also had to drink/eat/whatever the medicine the psychiatric prescribed to me. After that, I was sleeping terribly >.>
Okay, talk online does not help. But you have a blog because you fell lonely (or at least created this because you were bored and there were nothing to do XD). The solution of problem is with you, not with me, with PCGamer, with your doctor or whatever. If you want to stay your live eat/drinking/whatever medicines, you’ll. If you don’t…
My teacher recently said about a book he read. It was about a woman (I don’t remind her nacionality or the title of the book), it was similar like it:
- At 5, she was raped by her father
- At 13, she went to a “rape house” (don’t know what’s the correct name)
- At 45, she knew a man at that place. But, when she was finally going to be happy, she discovery she had a cerebral tumor. So she decided to be happy and fight against it.
- At 48, she was totally cured.
- At 49, she joined university
- At 54, she was formed
- At 61, she was the world’s most recognized psychologist (or similar to it).
Believe me, this story is not an exception.
Do you want to hear my story? I’ll tell you. I’m basically a normal boy, I’m not ugly but neither too beautiful. I wake up everyday at 5am, get out of home at 6am, and get to school at 6:45am, usually I’m the first to be there, the classrooms starts at 7:30 am. It’s been there since 2003 (I’ll finish school next year). I only made two “true” friends at school, I loved one girl at the school, but she didn’t paid attention to me. I’m in-love for another (okay, I have more chances with her at least :P) but I’m too shy to go to her and say something. So I always lose to another people on classrooms. Like I said before, I almost never go out of home, since there’s nothing to do outside (I said that I almost have no friends), so I stay my time for fansubbing. I started fansubbing with 12, I’m almost 16 now. Sometimes I get in depression, but I just guess that I’m in that situation because I wanted it: I could change it if I change by myself. And I did. I’m still the same, but at least I try hard on all I do and never gets decepcionated with what I do.
Again: Internet does not help, I just thought that if you read a little part of my story it could cheer you up.
btw, I agree 100% with PCGamer =)
Comment by Raijenki — February 29, 2008 #
あきらめないで!! even if there’s nothing i can do personally to help you, i definitely hope things get better. i love your blog and i may not know your personal history at all, i can tell you’re definitely a bright young woman with a wonderful future still ahead of her. please don’t give up on your dreams and forge ahead. i hope that medicine works wonders for you. we would hate you going all「絶望した!」on us.
Comment by AMAYA — February 29, 2008 #
Raijenki you’re totally right.
You really have to make the decisions in your life that help make you a happier person. You must persevere. I know if one doesn’t persevere, moreover allows the time to pass and the laziness to grow, you’ll become even MORE unmotivated to do something just because you never started before (so why start now? You know what I mean?)
The key is to really analyze why yo feel the way you do. If you felt a moment of being suicidal, step out of your body for a second (really deeply think for a minute) and ask yourself,
“Why am I feeling this way right now? What exactly is causing me to feel the way I do at this moment?”
If you build this habit of analyzing your daily actions, you’ll slowly, yet surely, become more aware of which actions affect your certain behaviours in life. It really helps because you’ll even become more aware of all your surroundings and how they affect you as well.
I personally wouldn’t work with pills to make me happy because happiness is an emotion that comes within. I don’t feel a pill can solve my solution because it’s merely like every other pill.
A pill only solves the surface of a symptom.
It doesn’t cure the cause.
What you need to do is find the cause of your problems (the roots of why the weeds are growing in your life) and start to clear them out one by one. It takes a lot of energy, dedication, steadfastness, love, compassion, hardship, pain, tears, joy, and so much more. However you need to have that long term goal; that end goal that you know you will achieve. You need that motivation to keep you going day by day.
I am fully confident any individual can take this task. You just need to realize that each one of us, including you, are an extremely beautiful and unique person within with such great capacities and gifts.
Comment by Sahba — March 1, 2008 #
hi wery good site
Comment by lexamr — March 1, 2008 #
ganbarimasu, atashi-san.
we love you and hope you’ll be alright.
Comment by Ink — March 9, 2008 #
You must not be eating healthy then..Foods DO influence emotions more than people know.
Plu,s you should be happy; Look at everything you’ve done and been in.
Right about now, I would be pretty happy having gone through life like this.
Man…I wanna go to an anime con..one day T_T
Comment by Minoru — April 14, 2008 #